Wednesdays SUCKS!

Bored in college! every Wednesday i have only one freaking class at 3.30pm. Woke up at 10 am this moring to meet up with Dana in college for MATH tuition. Was planning to meet up with Dana after her class which ended. While on the way to college, i msged Dana asking her where can i meet her... she replyed, "sorry ben, im on the way home..." Ben was like OMG! I want tuition from Dana cause i have a freaking quiz tomorow which im totally not ready for =p
Just hope for the best la i guess.... Dana you owe me!!! haha lol


have been on college since 11 am till now 5.... 6 whole hours doing nothing... what a waste of my life lol. I hate Wednesdays! argh stupid day... =P gatta go for class now lol...

Ben ben OUT!

ITS TIME FOR A CHANGE!

I've been thinkin about all the shit that has been happening to me lately i dont blame anyone for it, its just my unlucky luck. And i think that the way i been acting has been REALLY childish and stuff, haha. I've been so stupid for so many years not to see that God has given me so many good friends. Now my eyes have been opened and i see that all my friends really care for me and look out for me, and i have decided to be a better person to all of them! Im not the same Ben whom everyone used to know, i have CHANGED! You wanna know who i blame for me changing??? MELALYN! (lg leader) she is like the nicest girl i know! and i want to be just like her! although we are not the best of friends, but everytime i've got a problem, she is always there to comfort me and cheer me up. Not only that, she is nice to EVERYONE! There are also other people whom i thank for me changing, Dana, for being there to listen to me although she says that she has no experience with my problems; Tiff, Kheng Wei and Henry for talking to me when i needed someone to talk too.Sze mun who has been caring alot for me thank you so much for everything, Thanks to all of you! And im sorry if i have treated anyone like a dog or anything.

Im here to make you happy and laugh!=)

More.....

Haha life is just great. i mean i just found out that i failed me Malaysian Studies. WTF??? now im ganna have to repeat it again! argh!!!! screw this la.. sob.. =(

I know that more unhappy things are just ganna be happening soon....

life is full lof pain..... ouch.

The break up!

20th May 2007. Just two days more before two months of being in a relationship, and now its all over. I got together with the girl whom i thought was the one on the 22nd of March, in "study skills" class. haha really weird how we got together but we just did. We did not really get a chance to go out or anything, we would just see each other in college. During our first semester, all our classes were the same, and it was really nice to have someone you know who loves you and is there for you. But life is unfair and NEVER nice to you. She broke up with me because she did not really love me. Kinda sucks when it happened and it was kinda lame about not loving me. Was really ticked off about it, but thats life. Later that night i called her trying to patch things up with her, but like i said life is UNFAIR! And failed doing so. Before breaking up she had told me about the way she felt and that it was probably not going to work out, so we thought things might change if we just kept on going and together patch ourselves up. 3 days later she told me that it was just not working out. I tried to convince her not to break up, but she said "If we keep this on, we would be cheating ourselves" those were the words she typed in the msg. After that i was crushed, i felt like just jumping off some super tall building! I dont blame her, infact, in a way im really happy that she told me about how she felt and that she did not just want to be with me cause she just "like" me. I really loved her, and if she ever reads this, i ment every word i ever said to you... What was supprising was that she was the first girl to make me cry. CONGRATS!!! Although you did not get to see it but you did it! Yea i cried, not much but still.... Anyways, while i was so broken down i msged Mel ( lg leader) to tell about what just happened. She said "If you really love her you will learn to let her go" and to make me feel better she said,"It is better to be with someone who loves you then with the one you love" Yea i was told many times about this but never listened to it, i thought i would not have to go through that kinda experience. The most FUCKED up thing is that i have been helping friends fall in love. HAH! now look what happened! i just lost at my own fucking game.....

ASSIGNMENTS AND MORE...

ARGH! so many assignments! haiz i have an assignment for CTS and 2 assignments for Psychology and ONE for adv.english! why la!!!!!!!! so the diu wei...=( i just hope i can finish up all these in time if not im ganna get screwed BIG TIME! already emoing since last night for GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON, and today i have got nothing to do at all but these STUPID assignments!( asdkjfhaskjdhfaskjdfnanej ) <<<>

First blog!

Finally i have a blog for everyone to read about my BORING life. =) Intro! well im Benjamin Tan but you all can call me whatever you like Ben, ben ben. benny, benji, "Benana"^^ or just whatever you can think off lol. I have great friends whom i can look too for help if i ever need any^^,

There is really nothing much to know about me, but i think that if you get to know me you are not ganna regret it.