FML...

FML man. Life here is so full of disappointments. I dont know bout you, but i find it though to get what you want. Im fortunate enough to be born in a family that cares and nurture me. I guess you could say im well groomed and pretty well off. I appreciate all the things that i have right now and im thankful for them.

I get everything i need. Im not complaining bout that. Its what i WANT that's the problem. There are a whole load of things that i want but cant really get. I know people say that if you work for it, you'll get it. I have been trying my best with this, but things dont always turn out the way you plan for it. Its a lot easier said than done.

Right now, if i could start my life all over again, like in the movie 17 Again, i would choose to go back to form 1, age 13. If only i could re-do the last 7 years of my life, i would!! Sad to say, there's no such thing. Well i guess that just sucks for everyone who wants to start over.

But i have an alternative plan. I plan to go to Aus next year to continue my studies. I'll be finishing up my course of 2 more years there. Its ganna be an awesome experience, ganna learn new things, meet new people and stuff. Of all the things that i'll go through there, what im most happy bout is that i can start over.

Once there, i can be whoever i want, whatever i wanna be and no one can judge me. Here people know me, they know what im like, they know my character. I dont know... I just think that with a new life there in Aus, life would be a lot easier. I can adapt to life there.

Hate myself here. Hate what im like, hate the problems i've gone through. All the sad memories and just basically everything thats unhappy here. Once there, i dont have to worry bout anything that i've gone through in the past. I'll be able to create a whole new me.

I've told myself now, that if things dont work out the way i want it to by the end of this year, Im most likely not ganna get another chance, which is true. But im not giving up. PERSEVERE!! Thats what im ganna do! Like i said, i want to be a different guy when im there. Not only in terms of my social life, but in every part of my life.

Not sure what im really talking bout here either... Things right now just suck for me. There are some good times i get to enjoy if im lucky, but there are more bad times than good unfortunately. So im just looking forward to begin a whole new life and hope for the best in the years to come...


You should never, i repeat, NEVER, give up on your dreams. No matter how ridiculous they may seem, dont give up. This is a message to all those who read this.

Never back down...