Guess you people finally proved me wrong...

Don’t you just hate it when you try to prove something and you fail? Even when everyone you know keeps telling you that you’re wrong? We think that most of the time we know exactly what we’re up against, and that we’ll be able to take care of it. What’s worse is when you KNOW that things are not going to end up the way you want it to be, but you still preserver towards it. Sometimes you want it so badly that you’ll even kill for it. Well, shit happens… I know, I’ve tried...

All my close friends told me to give up. Telling me that it’s not going to work out and that she’ll patch things up again. They all saw it and kept warning me bout what kind of dead end lies at the end of this road. I told them that they were ALL WRONG! Honestly don’t know if my actions are considered good or just plain stupid.

There have been people I know that waited for that special someone for years. Not 1 or 2 years, but several years! And when they manage to get together whether its getting together or getting married, it just makes the wait more worth wild, know what I mean…?

Im not angry or mad with the people who warned me bout the kinda pain im going to end up with. Its nobody’s fault but mine. If I had just kept my face out of the photo from the very beginning, none of this would happened. You all say it with good intentions, and I respect and thank you for your concerns. But I just cant help myself. And congrats to all those who told me that its not going to work out! Cause you people got what you asked for. You guys finally proved me wrong

This year, I have learnt a very valuable lesson, what love really feels like. Not trying to sound gay or like a fag, but love cant be taught, it cant be read up in a book, not even the internet can tell you what love really is. To every individual, love is a complete different feeling. I know that im in love for sure. None of that puppy love bullshit.

It’s a feeling like no other, and this is my explanation of it. Take all the feelings you’ve had in your previous relationship, put it all together. The total feelings are not even close to a fraction of what I feel now for this girl. For those who have never been in a relationship, take the one thing you treasure the most, times that with infinity and it still not close to anything to what I feel. For anyone to know what love really is, they’d just have to find that special someone.

What can I say bout my current situation. She has no idea how I feel. And I cant bear to tell her how much I love her and how much pain it causes me knowing that the end has come. It’ll cause her so much sadness… Have thought of so many things to do with her, and now it looks like I wont be able to do most of them with her.



When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you, I was afraid to be close with you.
When I was close with you, I was afraid to tell you I love you.
Now that I’ve told you I love you, I’m afraid of losing you…




It’s crazy how we got close together. Its something that you’d NEVER see in the movies, Something that not many people experience, its just something so special what we had. I think so and she thinks so too. One minute we’d be arguing bout some really emo problems, and the next minute we’d be able to chat and laugh without feeling any awkwardness, and patch things up and continue chatting and laughing away. Its just so special. Its like lying down with the person you love so much with all your heart under a cloudless sky filled with stars, and just enjoying that beautiful moment. Its just breathless….

I don’t think I can ever stop loving her. The world wants me to stop; even she wants me to stop, all with good intentions. But how can I love another? There is never going to be another girl just like her. Yea there’d be better looking ones out there, smarter ones, but its not her. There is only one of her and I don’t want to stop loving her! Most of you by now might be thinking that im just being silly or just F**cking stupid for thinking like that.







But how can I expect anyone to truly understand how I feel when they dont know how much i really love her...