21

How time flies. Before you know, 21 years has just gone by just like that. Ams till up at this hour cause i cant sleep. Load of stuff on my mind. Its like 7am now, and im pretty sure i've got a long day ahead of me. But there's so mant things coming up in my mind.

For starters, things that had happened last year. Last year was a pretty shitty year, and i still remember my birthday last year and i can promise you it was nothing close to how awesome this year's bday went! All i can remember bout my bday last year was that i went out with Bec to get a shirt. Nothing fancy, nothing much to really shout about. But when compared to this year... WOW! A totally big difference. My girl... She's been practically the best thing that's happened to me!! Im so happy now that im with her, NO! MORE THAN HAPPY!

This year, for my bday, she went through so much just for me. No one has ever done that before for me! My last post was a real fucked up one, but that was only because of Abbie. She made me feel so upset bout everything! And why? Just so that she can supprise me. And i have to give her credit for going through all that just for me. Thanks b! To the extend that i broke down completly, but with the idea of supprising me, im just so thankful.

She planned with the guys to freaking kidnap me from my room, and take me to some random place to bday bash me. I was tied up, blind folded, make a cake out of me, watered and a little roughing... but it was all worth it because all my close friends were there! Am a little bumbed cause Abbie, you had to leave so early. But i totally understand. Still love you!

King ji
Mischa
J|n
Ivan
Justin
Jessie
Lavonne
And my favorite, ABBIE WONG!!!

Thanks for being a part of my 21st bday!

Right now im so thankfull for everything thats been happening to me in the past and now. Im 21 years old now, "officially" an adult. There ars just so many things happening and its all happening so fast. Am not sure if im able to cope with everything thats going on.

I'll be leaving for Aus in about a month from now, and i have a shit load of things to take care off...


Not sure why im a little moody, maybe its just cause i dont wanna grow up just yet. Dont get me wrong, i really am happy bout things that are going on now, its all so new, interesting and freaking awesome! But still... there are things that still bother me a little...

Expectations...
At this age, many people expect alot from you. Especially my family, as the oldest, im expected to do way more to contribute and set an example. I dont think i have done very much for even myself. In other words, im 21 now and i haven't yet done anything great with my life. Hmph... Even im expecting more from myself.

Honestly right now, im just so thankfull to have friends like the ones i have. Friends who have been there for me all the while, when i was my lowest and highest, they were always there. If i needed money they were there, when i need a shoulder to cry they were there, when i was troubled they were there to lend a hand however they could. I really thank God for the people in my life right now. Those who have helped me to become the person i am today. Am not very proud of myself right now, but i know that with people like these in my life, im ganna be the best i can be!

Abbie, thanks for helping me out all the time and always being there for me. Im sorry for always finding fault in you, and throwing it at you. I will try to change my old habbits and make new ones, ones that will make you happy and proud. You have no idea how happy and thankfull i am, that God has brought you into my life. And the best part is, you're all mine. And i promise that im ganna love you till the end of time!

Dont care what others say bout the things i say here. You think im sad or pathetic saying this like this? Well, you dont have someone so great in your life like i do, so you can fuck off again, again and another fucking time AGAIN!

There are just so many things right now i need to take care off, and i'd better make sure i become a better guy. For starters, i think i'll just try to mature a little faster and be more responsible with my life.

Thanks to my family who took the time to usher in my bday. Roughly 21 years and 7 hours ago, that was the day and time i was born. Now 21 years later, here i am. I wanna make you proud mom and dad. Only because you have done so much for me, like EVERYTHING SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN!!!!

Again, thank you all those who helped out with the supprise, contributed and attended the supprise. Was really touched, but i tunjuk macho a bit =p
Oh and thanks for the present mom and dad +D Its a really cool present!

And to my girl...


I love you again, again and another freaking AGAIN!!!!